maskara

sa harap ng marami, masaya ka.. laging nakangiti.. matapang..
sa labas mukha kang normal.. walang pinagdadaanan..

sa gabi.. sa bahay.. pagkatanggal ng mga abubot sa katawan.. ng kolorete sa mukha.. nandon ang katotohanan..

kaharap mo sa salamin ang totoong ikaw..

kahit hatid ay panandaliang saya.. sandaling paglimot..

salamat pa rin sa hiram na mukha.

sinking in

i have had this disease for more than a year now.. but everytime, a new issue comes up..

the news about the left is more traumatic than the first one.. aside from the effects of chemo, i never really felt sick..

but now, i feel i do.. i don't have pain.. dizziness and the feeling of pins and needles on my hands and feet i can tolerate.. but having to undergo more procedures is really making me realize what disease i have..

a friend gave me a book.. it gave me more knowledge about the disease.. but it didn't quite help me the way it's supposed to..

because for the first time in 13 months, i am scared.