soulmate

What is a soulmate? Who is your soulmate? Are there really soulmates? How do we know who are soulmate is?

I've been watching Korean telenovelas on YouTube and there was an episode on the two lead characters being soulmates based on tarot cards. Then someone told me I've already met my soulmate but we're heading on separate directions. how unfortunate to lose my soulmate without even meeting him. Does he know I am his?

Aren't soulmates suppose to end up together? Aren't they destined to be with each other?

I guess not. Coz mine is gone before we even got to know each other.

Maybe we could be together someday.. Probably in our next lifetime?

sigh.

maskara

sa harap ng marami, masaya ka.. laging nakangiti.. matapang..
sa labas mukha kang normal.. walang pinagdadaanan..

sa gabi.. sa bahay.. pagkatanggal ng mga abubot sa katawan.. ng kolorete sa mukha.. nandon ang katotohanan..

kaharap mo sa salamin ang totoong ikaw..

kahit hatid ay panandaliang saya.. sandaling paglimot..

salamat pa rin sa hiram na mukha.

sinking in

i have had this disease for more than a year now.. but everytime, a new issue comes up..

the news about the left is more traumatic than the first one.. aside from the effects of chemo, i never really felt sick..

but now, i feel i do.. i don't have pain.. dizziness and the feeling of pins and needles on my hands and feet i can tolerate.. but having to undergo more procedures is really making me realize what disease i have..

a friend gave me a book.. it gave me more knowledge about the disease.. but it didn't quite help me the way it's supposed to..

because for the first time in 13 months, i am scared.

life's choices

i have been lonely.. depressed..

i've changed.. i alienated myself .. i held grudge..

people may not like me for whatever reason.. but i couldn't care less anymore

in few days, i will age.. do i want to grow old grouchy?.. lonely?.. depressed?.. or bitter?..

NO!

i can be otherwise..

i am loved..

i have choices in life..

and i choose to be happy.

season finale

did you say it?

"i love you"

" i don't wanna ever live without you"

"you changed my life"

did you say it?



make a plan.. set a goal.. move towards it.. but every now and then look around... drink it in.. because this is it..

it might all be gone tomorrow.